What 100 Means to Me

I think I underestimated how it would feel to cross over 100 pounds.  Really, it wasn't that much different weight wise than 95 pounds, or even 99 pounds.  So why does it feel so incredible?

Probably because it is. 

100 pounds is like 10/10lb bowling balls.  

100 pounds is like 25/4lb bags of sugar.

100 pounds is 2/7 year olds (mine weighs 50).

Imagine carrying any of the above around.  All the time.

I almost feel like I've been freed.  It happened so gradually, over the last two years, that I don't think I've really considered the sheer magnitude of 100 pounds lost. 

Now that I've lost this amount of weight, I feel incredibly motivated to continue.

I feel like I can do anything.

Just 2 short years ago I had no goals or plans to do anything.  I was existing.

Today I'm living.

And healthier than I've ever been in all my life.


I will go ahead and remind you all, and myself, that I'm not done.  I haven't arrived.  And yet I am THAT.MUCH.CLOSER to where I want to be.  I'm 80% done losing weight (if 120 pounds ends up being my ultimate goal).  Dude, 20 pounds at this point is ueber do-able.  Seriously.

I have many many wise things to say to you all about this journey.  What I've learned, how I've struggled, where I've been, what it feels like to be me, experiencing this, right now.

But tonight I just want to continue to take it all in.  And bask in the amazing feeling of accomplishment.  I don't yet have words to do it justice.  I will though.  If you know me, you know being rendered speechless is a rare occurrence and typically passes.

In the meantime, enjoy this moment with me, will you?

~Clara